Stuck at home watching my phone,
Waiting for you to call,
Wishing you would pick up the phone,
Please pick up the phone,
To text me, joke with me,
Flirt with me?
Are you flirting,
Or am I just a diversion from the
Mundanity of the day when you get home from work.
When you get home from work, do you smile?
Are you happy, are you tired, are you depressed?
Are you mild?
Are you something more than just
What I see when you walk by
Doing your job, but sending me smiles?
When you get home, am I
On your mind
The way you're always on mine?
Don't you think you'd need a break
After all the time you spend
Haunting my every thought and every daydream?
Do you even know
That you're the very definition of
Everything I should I avoid?
Do you even know
That I am spending
My spare time wishing
That you would make your move?
You're older and wiser
More experienced than me the way everyone is.
What would you expect from me,
And yet I'd like to know.
I don't think I'd live up to your ideals,
But I'd like to try and show you how much fun
Depression can be.
And I shouldn't,
Oh my goodness I shouldn't,
But I do. And I want to.
Oh my goodness do I want to.
I want nothing more than to,
I want to, I want to, I want to. You're so
Well you're nothing I'd usually go for.
You're nothing I would usually want
But I'm empowered.
I'm brave, and sure, and I am entirely myself.
And I shouldn't,
Oh my goodness I shouldn't,
But I do. Oh my god I do.
