I'm 15. I cannot sleep. I'm not quite sure what to do... When I was younger, I'd go get my mom and we'd sleep in the guest room... When I got older I'd still do that, especially on the nights I couldn't sleep at all. There were a few days I literally just laid there all night, no clue what to do. I didn't want to wake her again because there really was nothing she could have done to fix it. I remember one time not being able to sleep all night, and pulling an all-nighter, and then when my mom woke up (very early as always) I went downstairs. When she asked what I was doing up, I had to inform her that I hadn't gotten any sleep at all that night, and that I had instead read because I couldn't sleep. But I feel kind of tired right now but I just can't seem to settle down enough to sleep, which is really bad because, you know, school. And I have to go because I've just missed SO MUCH already due to illness.
So what does a fifteen year old girl do about not being able to sleep?
Apparently, she blogs.
I've been thinking about writing, and what I can write on this blog, and I have an idea, and I know that I really do want to start blogging daily. I feel like the more I blog the better documented my life is, and it's easier to talk to strangers (or maybe no one) than a blank page in a journal apparently. What's cool is now I have an app for this! So I'll save the capital-S-Serious stuff for paper and pen and go ahead and use this blog to document the soap opera that is life in high school in the silly suburbia in which I live.
15 is kind of a forgotten age I think. I mean, 16 you drive, and fourteen is just kind of a Big Deal, but for those of us who don't celebrate our Quinceneras, 15 is just an age. For me however it feels like the right age to START. Just... Start everything and anything. Blogging every day, or trying to get famous. Because music is what I'm going to do. But it's so frightening to know how far away my dream is. I think about it and imagine scenarios every day, but every minute I wait is a minute wasted. I guess it's time to START.
But where?
Forever and Always,
Rex
(If I can't fall asleep in half an hour, I'll add below here. Otherwise, goodnight!)
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