Sad, Sad, Sad, Sad, Sad (and a bit of good news)

i'm not going to capitulize today. it's not in me. not with my thoughts lately. i'm not depressed, per se, but i have realized a few things that sort of depress me. so yeah.
good news or upsetting stuff first? how bout we do the happiness at the end as a sort of pick-me-up...

part 1: everything ends

more than anything. we want something more than anything. that something may be love, popularity, a sense of belonging, a home, or anything. we focus so hard on getting that one thing we don't see the people around us falling as we climb. why don't we look down? why don't we help them up? why don't we do something? anything! why don't we care about what's going on around us?  it's hard to let yourself drift away from that one goal, but you have to do it.
my teacher won an award. i was happy. but the article began "after 40 years teaching..." what will her last words be? will i know? will i be the one to hear them? what will my last words be? what's the last thing i want to say? who will be there to hear it? will anyone hear what I say, or am I alone?


everything ends, but as john green said, "the truth resists simplicity." because love will always exsist. hate will always exsist. memories will always be made and forgotten and lost. hearts will break and souls will leave. minds will wonder, and thus discoveries will always be made. but wars will live on forever. pain will never go away, not if humanity and mortality are alway in exsistance. how, i wonder, would life be without mortality? would people leaving us hurt the same? will our hearts ache for them, at least until we happen upon someone we haven't met? When you the generation be renewed? would heart ache be large when the happened? or would we be immune? would flaws still define who we are to our peers? would our mistakes still be front page news?

would we still be human?

Part 2: The Happy Part

The One-Act mania has ensued at our school! I am part of it because... (drumroll) Not only did I get a part (a monolouge), but the Courtinator, Me-House, Savvie-Savvie, Sha-Sha, and Christie also did! (<---- those peeps (Armavric is a boy) also have parts in the shows, but they don't read this 'cept for Courtinator.)
I play the artsy-looking student. I literally have no name (that I know of.) So yeah. Courtinator and Savvie-Savvie are in Sleepy Hollow and they are storytellers. The rest are students in After Math with me!

Congrats, Court and others!

Love you!

Rex

(Yeah I changed fonts! Deal wit it!)

(You probably though I was gonna forget to say it... well ha!


Forever and Always